Decided to start my own topic to keep track of my journey.
My profile shows my journey up to November and I was so positive! Even through December and over Christmas I was doing ok, not losing, but lost the weight I put on over Christmas.
I had such a big blow when my niece returned my christmas card, damaged. So it brought all the anxieties of the total breakdown of relationship with my sister and the false accusations she’d made.
So this year has been difficult, to say the least! I am such a worrier and an emotional eater! But I was determined not to allow this to make me fall back into bad eating habits. I decided to start counselling. This has been positive but brought to the surface unpleasant growing up memories which I had buried!
My OH is a great support.
This week hasn’t been good, the weather has been foul, wet and windy. I feel anxious and so have eaten everything in sight! My waste band is tight so I know I’ve put on weight.
This morning the sun was shinning so I got out for a good walk,which raised my spirits! I feel more positive, we have friends for dinner which I’m looking foward to.
Writing this helps me consider how to go forward. I will weigh in the morning, check what damage I’ve done. But most importantly I mustn’t beat myself up whatever the result. I can’t do anything about the number on the scale!
Monday I WILL fast.
10:46 am
4 Feb 17