New York, USA
Day 31 / FD
Weighed in at somewhere around 163.2 (halfway between 164, for the whole month of November, and my weight the day after i fasted, 162.4)and now clocked in at 158.8. That’s a loss of 4.4 pounds. My goal was 5 pounds, but nearly there.
It’s a bit crazy-making, but two days ago I weighed in at 157.6 and I was over the moon. I’ve been doing some intense cardio (an hour a day of cross-country skiing) and I think people have said your muscle workouts will make your muscles retain water, and also you build muscle after workouts, so I definitely expected some gain. But it’s still a bit maddening to register such a gain. I know it’s only a pound, but having to lose it all over again! Ack.
On the other hand, I do feel like my job is to be patient. When I was in weightwatchers, I bought a support book (can’t remember the title for sure — maybe “Finding your Fingerprint”?)and it said that patience is staying calm and not going “negative” when things get difficult or don’t go as planned or things go off the rails completely. Staying calm and enduring, WITHOUT going negative.
I realized that for this weight thing, I would always interpret difficulties or setbacks in a way that allowed me to more or less give up. It’s hard to wait for small incremental changes in weight loss. I’m learning to be more patient, and more positive, and to HANG IN. So, 4.4 pounds or 5.6 (if I had only stayed at 157.6!!), I’m realizing that it is truly and really headed in the right direction.
It’s okay to be hungry; hungry won’t hurt me; what’s hurting me is the extra weight and the sense of not enjoying my body when I just let myself gain mindlessly. Losing mindfully is not easy, but it’s well worth it.
Thanks to all here. I will be posting on the February site now, starting at 158.8. MANY thanks to Fuvvie for keeping the spreadsheet, and thanks to all of you who cheered me up when I was feeling desolate. Mwah!
Pamela
6:23 pm
31 Jan 17