I have posted elsewhere several weeks ago and ‘started’ my story. Life then got really busy again and took over. I lost my focus and, as has happened many, many times before, I have given myself permission to eat with abandonment and gained back any weight I had lost. I feel I need to leave that thread behind- it’s buried somewhere in the forums anyway and move on with a fresh start.
After a week’s holiday (the first actual week away in five years) I have returned rested and with renewed enthusiasm to get my weight under control and reach the goal I have been striving for for 20 years. Having had my holiday marred by the embarrassment of having to don a swimsuit I have decided- that’s it!
I’m hoping to get away this time next year and my aim is for a slim body that won’t make taking my clothes off a source of humiliation.

So, my stats!
38 years old
5ft 8in
12 st 8.8lb

My plan-
5.2 each week (mainly mon and Thurs to fit around work and other stuff)
Keeping between 1600-1900kcal on most non fast days
Limiting white carbs and sugar- cake is a serious downfall of mine!
A slice of cake when I feel like it but not all the time!
12 000 steps a day at least using my Fitbit and riding my horse three times a week.
I will weigh in on a Monday and post my results and diary here each week.

The aim-
To have lost some, if not all, of my 36lbs (taking me to 10st and a UK SIZE 10) by the end of the year.

See you on Monday!

Hey looney41
Yes- homemade cake is the best!!! I have a recipe for a nice sugar free carrot, Apple and sultana cake which makes me feed slightly more virtuous! But my other half made some choc brownies yesterday- seriously good ones too. The family have demolished the lot already (and I helped)!
What is your favourite cake?

So, Week One!

I have weighed in and have lost 1.4lb which is a good start and I’m pleased!

Last week was a difficult week rushing around trying to fit everything in from 6am until I fall onto the sofa around 9pm generally. And a spate of ‘things going wrong’ hasn’t helped. Car breaking down, followed by flat tyre, followed by washing machine, then car alarm, overflow pipe, printer and now a lame horse. Add onto that my partner has been really busy with work so I have been trying to help him out by doing as much child pick ups/ dog walks/ jobs as I can between my work.
On the plus side the fast days were actually easy (no time to think about being hungry) but on the NFDs I was more inclined to think I might reward myself with some cake ‘keep me going’. It’s a mindset I struggle to get out of because having a chance to sit down and have a cup of tea and slice of cake is a treat!
That being said I guess if I continue to lose every week even whilst having my cake then I shouldn’t feel guilty- another mindset to conquer!!
I have also bought myself a second hand juicer on ebay. Am thinking on NFDs I might make myself a juice and replace a meal just to help get more nutrients into the system. I have been inspired by the documentary film ‘Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead’. I eat a lot of plant based food anyway, being a vegetarian, but you can always fit more in!
I tend to save up most of my kcals on a fast day for one big meal early evening but I do have one cup of tea and one coffee through the day, both with skimmed milk, just to have something to look forward to! I dont think I want to blow any of my precious kcals on juice on a fast day as I’d rather have something solid.
Well, that’s it for now. Until next week…..